once again, am wondering about relationships..
i dont know if it's just me or is it the effect of reading too much romance stories. i dont know why im such a sucker for them. maybe it's because my relationships so far are far from the happy kinds that one read about in storybooks. the one where the guy and the girl meets, sparks fly, fall in love, argue, makeup and finally live happily ever after. hahas. it's nice. reading's nice. it's a place where one can escape into an alternate dimension. it's safe. cause you know that the story's going to end with everyone more or less happy. unlike in real life where things rarely go our way..
blahh..
okae.
i know i had the second chance in relationship but i chose to gave it up. i would wonder if we would still be together if i hadnt insisted on breaking things off..? would i be happily spending my days with him? or would it be a chore?
why is it that i always seem to want so much more. or that when ive got the chance to get what i previously wanted, i would push it away? and sometimes curse or praise myself for doing that [depending on the situation]..?
hahh
