feeling mightily pissed off at someone called 'mother' now. chicken nana.
dont talk to me about what i want like you are me and that you know everything that i want.
cause my list of wants can hit everyone around me til there's a gap of 10m in between. that's the amount of things i want. yeah. and i have no way of attaining them. except to cross them out and console myself with the fact that it's useless and that i dont need them or that i already have something similar at home. freaking crap.
i know that im relatively lucky cause M dont hover around me making sure that im doing my homework and send me to tuition just for the heck of it. neither does she sit around and talk about my grades with other gradesobssessed aunties. bloody hell. but somewhere in between, your brain went on overdrive and manufactured some weird things about me, like how dumb im. yeah. okae. so maybe not dumb. let's try lazy and unwilling to work for it.
hahas.
okae. yeah maybe that's true? but. may i add. im lazy and unwilling to work for something THAT I DONT BELIEVE IN. aka. the school itself.
aww.
so sad.
the school's the best that you can get. yupps. why am i so disgruntled with it?
maybe it's because of the way our school gives us encouragement by not giving us encouragement, aka 'you can do it', 'we believe in you'. instead they show us how well the other batch did it, how the previous batches did it. and says that with the 'new and improved' system we would be able to do even better. nevermind about us being unsupportive of the 'new and improved' system. hello. the first thing you need to do is to have our full support to ensure that the 'new and improved' system would work its wonders right? -.-
or maybe it's because they try to drown us in yesterday's supplementry lesson and asks why didnt we turn up for school today. like duh. we need time to recuperate from yesterday's onslaught of homework+supplementry class. mind you, it's class. not classes. not 2, not 4, but 1. '1 only complain until like shit for what?' yeah. precisely. cause it's 1 and we have to stay back till godknowswhattime..
arrrgh.
stupid school.
