10th Grade
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As I sat there in english class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.
11th Grade
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The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one drew barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.
Senior year
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The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said,"he's not gonna go" well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together-just as 'best friends'. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angle up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine-but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'I do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said 'you came!'. She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy and late enough, and I don't know why.
Years passed
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I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: "I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me."
'I wish I did too...' I thought to my self, and i cried.
My friends, do yourself a favor, when you love somebody tell her/him that you love them. They won't be there forever.
damn. stories like this always get me.
freaking hell.
hais. why isit so that when we choose to make a certain decision, it ends up being the wrong decision most of the time? especially in BGR terms. especially when the girl confesses to the guy. and got rejection instead. or vice versa.
there are times when either the girl or the guy confess and the opposite party accepts... that's nice isnt it?
hahas.
but the sad truth is that it just doesnt happen all the time.. afterall.. you cant always have what you want. can you imagine if you always get what you want? then people like Hitler would continue their destruction on the world. maybe Jews would be totally annihilated. maybe the world would be populated entirely by Germans themselves? maybe. then, speaking on personal terms. some friendship would never happen. cause sometimes, you may start out disliking each other and wish that you would never be friends. but ended up that you two become great friends. imagine if you had gotten what you want. you would lose a friend in your life. maybe the impact she made in your life is not that great. but still, an impact is still an impact and would have its impression. your character may be different. maybe your friend has helped you through difficult times, when things are down and it's hard to look up. imagine if that person isnt there.
bahh..
think am going to start letting people know about the existence of this blog.. =]
hope that human traffic would be controlled. so that i dont have to waste online space by opening blog after blog just so i can type without the feeling of not being able to just say what i want cause there's the need to censor some of my thoughts due to the people reading at the other end..
