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Sunday, April 30, 2006
i know it's not very tactful of me to say this. but i changed the URL because i know that he would visit it. and i feel restricted by what i type at that blog. hence the change of URL. but i dont know if it would be effective.. cause it still feels like blogging at the same blog, and after a while i would remember 'oh, hey, im not at the old blog so i can blog about anything i want'. pretty troublesome actually. hahas =]
im sorry for how things ended up. but i wont be sorry for what i had done.
damnit.
im a cold heartless
bitch girl. [cant be that harsh on myself =\]
bleaghs..
if i were able to turn back time. i would make it all go slower.
the faster you get on a ride. the faster it ends.
guess that's what happened.
hope that it wont happen again?
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 10:09 PM!
mwahahs.
changed the URL =]
very bored at home.. sian. hais. where did everyone go to..? gosh.. sick of staying at home. and now i dont see the point of going out alone anymore.. bleaghs. hmm. maybe i should try the going out alone thing again? lols =D besides, i need to get a few stuff too =]
yeah
sun bian take a look at adidas jacket. whee.
okae.
that's it!
im going out!
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 2:36 PM!
Saturday, April 29, 2006
when i've gym on saturdays, im hoping that i would miraculously fall sick or that it would get cancelled so that i can stay at home and do stuff that requires my urgent attention [eg art]. now that midyears are here and CCAs are suspended and there's no gym- I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!! it's not that ive got nothing to do. it's just that i dont know what to do!
goodness
what's wrong with me? seriously!
geez..
bah..
maybe i shall go and sleep. so sian that mother's not working.. if not i would feel at ease doing my homework.. dont ask me why, but i feel discomfort doing homework in front of my family members- like it's something to be ashamed of. -_-" yeah. im a weird person.
child is no longer applicable to me =P
hahas
feeling too old for the world nowadays?
welcome to the I-think-im-old-enough club. no limits. but somehow it only seems to b applicable to those not yet adults.
hmmm..
wonder how it would feel to be an adult with a fulfilling work life??
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 11:51 AM!
Friday, April 28, 2006
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 10:02 PM!
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
close your eyes and listen carefully
do you hear the trees whispering its secrets to each other?
do you feel the wind making its seductive dance across your skin?
or do you hear everything and nothing, feel everything and nothing
cause youve lost it all-
lost all the feelings you once felt so accurately?
got yourself numb till nothing stirs your emotion?
have you?
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:41 PM!
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
i like reading otto's blog cause of her insightful entries.. it's everything that i wanted to say, yet i cant seem to find the words to phrase them.
yeah.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:01 PM!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
who was i actually kidding when i promised myself to study at night??
this is freaking dumb man.. heeh..
why is it so that i always commit the same mistake [in studying] when i had promised myself not to do so in the first place?
lols.
so what the hell.
hahas.
just occured to me that i seem to be losing focus.. this shouldnt be happening..!! i should be focused and whatever crap i need to be!
..
lets face it though. when was the last time that im focused??
arrgh.
bought kinder surprise today. heheh =D ate the eggs. still havent open the toy yet. hee.
okae. shall go and save my soul from school. bye
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:57 PM!
bah.
went to causeway point with family minus brother just now, cause my parents want to look for new bed, hahas. but then didnt see the bed with the size that they wanted, so we just walk around the place in the end. heheh. hmm.. saw quite a few beds that i like though. look very comfy. make me feel like lying on it and never getting up again. hahas :D but ive got a good enough bed at home, so nvm. heeh.
hmm..
think that i shall put on a tagboard. cause.. yeah. hahs. shall just copy and paste the previous one over,hee
anyways..
hope that one day i would finally make a decision that wouldnt hurt anyone.
freakaziods.
go away.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 6:48 PM!
Thursday, April 20, 2006
it wasnt an easy decision to make. you are a nice guy. you seriously deserve a better girl than me. im sorry that i wont be smiling by your side laughing at stupid stuff. but im sure that you would find someone who will love you back equally. im sorry that i put you through all that crap. you dont deserve it. if there's anyone who should have a better girl, it's you.
hope that you would be able to put this past you. and be able to love the next girl as much, if not more.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:39 PM!
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
while demerits do not hold much place in my heart, the 3points taken still cuts deep.
ouch.
damnit.
shouldve done my homework.
but then and again, if people had listened to what's right and wrong, there wouldnt be so much crime rates. agree? hahas. just a crap excuse for not doing my homework.
hmm..
debate yesterday on corporal punishment being the way to sovle juvenile deliquency. hehh. was discussing with zhenwen and maria that reflections are much more effective and better when it comes to curing such stuff, cause reflections make you think about what you did- if it's wrong or right? it makes us realise our mistakes and allows us to identify them and prevent them from happening again. but im a living example of it not working cause i KNOW that it's wrong not to do my homework and i should do my homework. but i STILL do not learn from my mistakes [even after being 'awarded' demerit points] as i STILL do not do my homework. hehh. funny aint it? that one can preach all he/she wants and yet ends up not doing what he/she preaches. i believe that everyone of us knows what is right and what isnt. it's just a matter of which we chose to follow.
no wonder humans are so screwed up.
bahh.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:26 PM!
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
aunt: hello? may i speak to your mother please?
me: err, she's out of country?
aunt: o, with who? your father?
me: err yeah.
aunt: dont you have school?
me: [duh] yeah
aunt: o, then you're home now?
me: [hello, what phone no. did you call? my house right? obviously im home if not how i pick up your call?] yeah
aunt: orh. okae. *hangs up*
pro or what?
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:17 PM!
life's such a bore..
all my favourite bloggers seem to have taken leave [with the exception of
otto].
hence.
i just come online for the sake of being online..
kept on clicking on the same blog reads and find them un-updated [hahs, is there such a word??!] 5min later and the whole process repeats itself.
-_-"
it's not that i dont have homework to do.
it's just that.. hmm.
ive got nothing better to do i cant think of a good reason.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:01 PM!
Monday, April 17, 2006
Losing Brain Cells Part 1
it was a nice saturday midmorning. all the gymnastics equipments were kept and everyone, boys and girls, were wearing their pants and skirts [respectively]. i climbed up the stairs to the top of the stage to adjust my skirt. looked up heard a dull konk and saw stars.
guess what??
brillant me has knocked my head against the edge of that grey coloured switchbox located next to all the [duh] switches for fans and lights.
damnit.
my forehead hurts. it wasnt pain till the extent that i blanked out. admittedly i wanted to cry. not from the pain but from the shock. hahhas. seriously..
and now it's almost okae le. not that pain le.
Losing Brain Cells Part 2.
was putting laundry into the baskets and looked up. hit my forehead once again. saw stars. freaking idiotic.
arrgh.
pain.
tell me. how to pass my grades when all my brain cells are gone?
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:55 PM!
Sunday, April 16, 2006
iwannaflyawaytoafarawaylandwherenobodycanfindmetobeatpeacewithmyselfincaseistrikeoutatanybodythatisunfortunateenoughtobeinmylineoffire
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 8:46 PM!
sometimes i wish that im dont think so much.. hahas.. just when i found out the answer to a question, i would think if it's the best solution and if it would be fair? ahh.. haahs fatalities of being beijia.
"I'm Like A Bird",Nelly Furtado
You're beautiful, that's for sure
You'll never ever fade
You're lovely but it's not for sure
That I won't ever change
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true
[Chorus:]
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is, I don't know where my home is
(and baby all I need for you to know is)
I'm like a bird, I'll only fly away
I don't know where my soul is , I don't know where my home is
All I need for you to know is
Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don't know me that well
And though my love is rare
Though my love is true
[Chorus]
It's not that I wanna say goodbye
It's just that every time you try to tell me that you love me
Each and every single day I know
I'm going to have to eventually give you away
And though my love is rare
And though my love is true
Hey I'm just scared
That we may fall through
[Chorus x 3]
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 4:09 PM!
it's a sunday and it feels like saturday..
blahh.
cant concentrate on my bloody homework.. and there's lotsa tests next week.. fuckitall..
knn... -.-
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 4:05 PM!
Sunday, April 09, 2006
fated to be together.- to quote from nicholas.
hahas, i like that.
will fate be all that we need? hahs.
we can bump into each other all over singapore or the world for all i care, cause without a careful selection of words at the end of the day, we would still be friends, bumping into each other at odd spots. hahahs :D
heehhehs.
hmm.. after my first relationship. i think that i now dont make promises that i know i cant keep. especially about relationships. i meant it when i say i wish for this to last [cause seriously, at that point of time, i did wished that it lasted]. but i wouldnt declare that we would be together 1314 [yi shen yi shi- eternally, simplified]. find it ridiculous. i mean, yeah it IS possible to be. but nobody knows what would happen.. hahas.
arrgh. have no idea what im blogging about now. am having a slight headache. honestly think that im not suited for afternoon naps, seeing that i always wake up with a headache :D heheh. opps.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:17 PM!
at this point in time, i dont know about just how much im in love with you. im pretty much in sync with the present. i rarely think about the future. about how it would be like to have your babies and the what not. im more likely to think about whether you are having fun outside? have you eaten? i cant promise you that i would not have a change of heart. but i can promise you that no matter what happens, i would not regret the happy times we had spent together. i do not know if this whole thing will work out. all i know is that im truly happy when im with you. i do not laugh as much as i did with anyone else. and to me, laughter is a pretty important aspect of my life.. i dont care if you're not handsome looking. i like the fact that you know how to make me laugh and all. just wanna let you know that i would cherish all the moments we have together.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 3:27 PM!
bah bah black sheep =]
hahas.
long time since i had posted here. anyway.. am feeling the need to work my mind today. has geared up my mind for studying for the social studies test tomorrow by finishing most of my homework.. now left.. one information sheet and.. err. one poa assignment.
bleaghs.
hahas. who gives a hoot about whether i do my homework or not? -.-
say it loudly and proudly with me:
I DONTfeeling much happier,eh?
laadidum.
the world is all
pink and rosy blue and bright! flowers are gently swaying to the wind, birds flying high in the sky in perfect harmony with the wind.
okae. whatever. hahas.
byee
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 2:42 PM!
