[MY`OATHS]
Monday, March 27, 2006
had meet-the-parents this saturday. only thing is that i didnt go, cause my parents arent free. anyhow. heard that they got back their results.. then all the class position and all that's out.. dont think i would be amazed if i were to get last in class.. can tell just what i think of my study attitude. heh.. damn bad. of course i know i should put in more effort for my homework. like duh, since the teachers have been harping on that for four years consecutive during meet-the-parents sessions..
really wish that i can buck up on my school work. but yeah.. i can wish for all i want and not get it cause it's just a WISH.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:13 PM!
Sunday, March 26, 2006
it's qing ming jie once again and here comes all the burning of joss sticks and paper and the praying for family. think that it's damn polluting to the environment. but still, traditions are traditions and to give it up completely seems very rude to the elderly. both are equally important. =\ guess we would have to find some other ways to cut down on our pollution..?
anyhows. woke up bright [more likely dark, as it was 450] and early. went downstairs and waited for ahyi they all to come. after breakfast and we're on our way to da yi ma's house to pick her up and continue our journey to the chinese cementry at choa chu kang there. the cementry's quite crowded- both by people and by graves. lols :D it's not what i expected. you see, i thought that it would only be a few random graves with wild bushes growing around them. i did not expect to see ROWS and ROWS of graves. goodness. i wouldve taken a picture and uploaded it for you all to see, if ah yi hadnt said that it's disrespectful [and not to mention that you might get more than what you bargained for]. so yeah.. it's quite neat [save for a few that were excavated and its bricks left to crumble]. like what you would see at the cinema/theatre. except that the 'seats' are bigger. grass growing everywhere. there were alot of cars parked all around. but since the place's so big.. yeah.. so we got out all our stuff- the fruits, joss sticks, prayer paper, lighter and 'money'. then all the procedure and stuff like that.. heheh. the burning of the papers was quite scary cause there were no container to burn them all in. =S pretty big fire. quite fun helping.. hmm.. then finished everything and went back to da yi ma's house there to pick up my other two cousins and go to the.. columbarium around bishan there to pray for my grandma and uncle.
then.. hmm yeah. funnily, they are opposite each other. completely coincidental. lols. hmm.. then we went to get a table and put out our praying stuff.. pray finished.. then was looking around and then i saw someone. look very familar. took a closer look at the shoes and realise that it looks like nicholas' shoes.. looked up, hoping for the person to turn around so that can see who it is. holy brocolli- it IS nicholas! lols. [today's a day for coincidences] nice to see him. havent seen him for a long time.. =\ he's coming back on friday though, for prize giving.. hmm.. yeah. then er. ee.. orh.. eh. exchanged a few words before i gotta leave.. then the rest of our conversation carried on to sms. lols. yeah..
so i can safely say that today's 'excursion' an eye-opener for me =]
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 1:00 PM!
Saturday, March 25, 2006
i have a thing for grease kinda songs. wahahas. swing music.. or duno what it's called :D hee. also like their dressing style for that era. seems quite classy, some of the dress.. hee..
laadidum.
grease the musical's held here on may.. wish i can go. but i think that it's around my chinese olvl.. so.. sian. =[ anyhow. am searching for grease2 e dvd. or vcd. if not i shall get grease. heheh. ^.^ hopefully bah, considering the fact that mom doesnt really give me money to spend on such stuff :( damn..
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 10:24 PM!
Monday, March 20, 2006
******* The Analysis Starts Here *******
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Beijia has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Beijia fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Beijia has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Beijia is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Beijia would like to leave the past behind and move on.
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Beijia has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.
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Something is incomplete in Beijia's life. She feels frustration relating to her physical needs and desires. Somewhere in her life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Beijia's sexual needs.
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Beijia's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Beijia that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Beijia also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Beijia is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Beijia's self-concept is artificially low. Beijia will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Beijia to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Beijia is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
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In reference to Beijia's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Beijia slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Beijia can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.
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Beijia will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!
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When Beijia expresses an opinion on a issue she will stick to that opinion, and probably will not change her mind. In other words... Beijia is stubborn. When she is wrong about something that she has decided upon, she will have trouble admitting she is wrong. Changing Beijia's mind can be very difficult. Once Beijia makes up her mind, she doesn't want to be confused with the facts!
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Beijia is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Beijia will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Beijia an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Beijia is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Beijia is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.
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People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Beijia doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
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& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:44 PM!
: guys,
realize that the girl holding onto u..
is PERFECT in her own special way.
The way she laughs..
The way she sleeps..
The way she loves you..
The way she tries to please you...
Always remember that.
She can always walk away and out,
getting someone else who can love her
more.
For all you know,
there is already someone out there wooing her
but she is rejecting,
a maybe perfect love for her..
There might also be someone out there..
who is willing to love her more than you are loving
her now,
so fufill her every need and love her as much as
she
loves you.
Understand that.
Girls have a huge guilty conscience.
...imagine this, guys.
When you are holding her today...
and then you cheat on her by hugging
and kissing
another gal.
and then you run back to her...
and u do the same....
but you see love in her eyes...
What do you think?
Do you feel the hurt?
Can you feel the guilt?
She loves you not because you are
good looking,
have money,
buy her things,
make her parents happy
She loves you for who you are.
Your every touch, every word you say, everything
you do.
Guys.
Cherish and appreciate your girl.
Don't break her fragile heart.
She is the only one who can love you that way.
You won't wanna regret letting go of that special
girl you have.
For everything she has done for you, the least
you
can do is to give her unconditional love as she
has given to you.
Girls and guys... if you agree with this, repost
this just so that everyone can read this and
appreciate their girls more.
hahahs. there's so much of this kinda 'letter' going around, telling guys to treat girls right. yet guys still have the innate ability to hurt them. so what's the point of all these 'letters' when guys dont heed them??
not as though they dont have brains to think for themselves. they can claim that it's the other party's fault for all they want but at the end of the day, they are still making excuses..
arrgh.
hahas.
lack of sleep. =]
didnt sleep at all last night/this morning. aka ton the whole night. hhahs. miracle that i wasnt sleeping in any of the classes today. especially in POA.
whee.
they changed timetable. not much difference though..just that we would have PE tomorrow.
WE ARE GOING TO GET OUR LONG AWAITED(not really) CLASS TEE TOMORROW!!!WOOHUU!!
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 6:58 PM!
Sunday, March 19, 2006
The Lovers of the Heart
In order to form
a more perfect kiss,
enable the mighty hug to promote
to whom we please
but one kiss.
Article 1:
Statement of Love:
The Kiss
1.
Kiss on the hand
I adore you
2.
Kiss on the cheek
I just want to be friends
3.
Kiss on the neck
I want you
4.
Kiss on the lips
I love you
5.
Kiss on the ears
I am just playing
6.
Kiss anywhere else
lets not get carried away
7.
Look in your eyes
kiss me
8.
Playing with your hair
I can't live without you
9.
Hand on your waist
I love you to much to let you go
Article 2:
The Three Steps
1.
Girls:
If any guys gets fresh with you, slap him.
2.
Guys
If any girl slaps you, her intentions are still good.
3.
Guys & Girls
Close your eyes when kissing, it is rude to stare.
Article 3:
The Commandments
1.
Thou shall not squeeze
too hard.
2.
Thou shall not ask for a kiss,
but take one.
3.
Thou shall kiss
at every opportunity.
* Remember *
A peach is a peach
A plum is a plum,
A kiss isn't a kiss
Without some tongue.
So open up your mouth
close your eyes,
and give your tongue
some exercise!!!
Here are a few reasons
why guys like girls:
1.
They will always smell good
even if its just shampoo
2.
The way their heads always
find the right spot on our shoulder
3.
How cute they look when they sleep
4.
The ease in which they fit into our arms
5.
The way they kiss you and
all of a sudden everything
is right in the world
6.
How cute they are when they eat
7.
The way they take hours
to get dressed
but in the end
it makes it all worth while
8.
Because they are always
warm even when its minus 30 outside
9.
The way they look good
no matter what they wear
10.
The way they fish for compliments
even though you both know that you
think she's the most
beautiful thing on this earth
11.
How cute they are when they argue
12.
The way her hand always finds yours
13.
The way they smile
14.
The way you feel
when you see their name
on the call ID
after you just had a big fight
15.
The way she says
"lets not fight anymore"
even though you know that
an hour later....
16.
The way they kiss when
you do something nice for them
17.
The way they kiss you
when you say
"I love you"
18.
Actually ...
just the way they kiss you...
19.
The way they fall into your arms
when they cry
20.
Then the way they apologize
for crying over something that silly
21.
The way they hit you
and expect it to hurt
22.
Then the way they apologize
when it does hurt.
(even though we don't admit it)!
23.
The way they say
"I miss you"
24.
The way you miss them
25.
The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or
know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
When you look them in the eyes,
traveling to
the depths of their souls
and
you say a million things
without trace of a sound,
you know that your own life
is inevitable consumed
within the rhythmic beatings
of her very heart.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.
*
This chain started in 1887.
It is a love chain letter.
In an hour you are
supposed to send it to
25 people.
It is easy, just look into
chat rooms and find them.
Anyway,
send it to 25 people in 1 hour.
Now here
comes the fun part.
You then say
the name of the person
you like or love
and then the person will say
"I love you,"
or
"Will you go out with me?"
NO JOKE!!!!!
just something i got off an email sent to me. lols. this is like most of the chain letters about love and kissing combined into one. i wonder if there's a record for the guiness book of records for the longest [either length wise and time wise] chain letter around? if time wise, how are they going to prove it..? hahs. hmm.. it would be a funny record to break. hahas. anyhows.. i find the article on why guys like girls funny. heheh.. dun ask me why. just find it funny.. laadidum.
anyway. bought new school shoes- north star. hahas. i can wear size4- wow! O.O i had no idea.. there was no size 5. so thank goodness i can fit into size 4 without it being to squeezy for comfort. afterall, this is the pair of shoes that i would be wearing for pe too, and can you imagine running in too-tight shoes?? >.<
gotta go. school's in tomorrow :'(
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 9:59 PM!
Your Birthdate: June 7 |
You are an island. You don't need anyone else to make you happy. And though you see yourself as a loner, people are drawn to you. Deep and sensitive, you tend to impress others with your insights. You also tend to be psychic - so listen to that inner voice!
Your strength: Your self sufficiency
Your weakness: You despise authority
Your power color: Maroon
Your power symbol: Hammer
Your power month: July |
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?You Have a Choleric Temperament |
You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.
You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.
At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior. |
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 1:56 PM!
Friday, March 17, 2006
BABOOM!
hahas. used the compose section. hahhs..
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:06 PM!
monday= sleep
tuesday= sleep
wednesday= sleep
thursday= sleep
friday= sleep
saturday= sleep
sunday= sleep
that's how i plan to pass my holidays, thank you very much. i dont need homework and social life cocking up this schedule. but somehow. it always does. damnit man. this is killing my social life. hahas. not. -.-
BLEAGHS!
2 words: THIS SUCKS!
hahas. am suppose to go makan with yiling.. meet her at about.. 5?6? hahha. called it off in the end cause she's too hungry. then jean and valerie with her. so go with them lor. sobs. so im now currently stuck at home. decided to get started on my social studies homework [which is supposed to be handed in by friday,
LAST WEEK].. but the stupid computer.. arrgh..
people.
be wary.
be very wary.
there's an evil force in your house!
not.
instead, it's THIS!
the computer!
yes!
the computer!
the fact that im online right now when i should be doing my homework just shows how evil it is as it prevents us people from doing stuff that require our immediate attention. instead *gasp* time is wasted on stuff like blogging. -_-"
hahas
somebody just kill me.
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:04 PM!
monday= sleep
tuesday= sleep
wednesday= sleep
thursday= sleep
friday= sleep
saturday= sleep
sunday= sleep
that's how i plan to pass my holidays, thank you very much. i dont need homework and social life cocking up this schedule. but somehow. it always does. damnit man. this is killing my social life. hahas. not. -.-
BLEAGHS!
2 words: THIS SUCKS!
hahas. am suppose to go makan with yiling.. meet her at about.. 5?6? hahha. called it off in the end cause she's too hungry. then jean and valerie with her. so go with them lor. sobs. so im now currently stuck at home. decided to get started on my social studies homework [which is supposed to be handed in by friday,
LAST WEEK].. but the stupid computer.. arrgh..
people.
be wary.
be very wary.
there's an evil force in your house!
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 6:45 PM!
Thursday, March 16, 2006
bleagh.. these few days are not really good for me.. duno why. most likely reason would be pms. hahas. read somewhere [most likely readers' digest] that hormones do not cause changes in emotions but rather it's emotions that causes hormones to change. eh.. in other words would be that.. hormones just aggravate the feelings. understand? no? nevermind. i understand can already :P hahas. just slowly think it through lah.. sure will understand one. =]
anyway. went to OG at orchard there with mother and her friend today. they were having sale. damnit. i had NO freaking idea. if not i wouldve avoided the place like plague. X_X yeah. so people were like all over the place.. goodness. packed like sardines. especially the top floor where it's selling pots and pans and the culinary what nots. which makes me wonder. when would a woman stop going gaga over a fabulous pair of heels that make her feel like god but instead go gaga over a non-stick pan, cast aluminium cookware and the likes?? gosh. i dont know the answer to THAT. but i do know. on the day that you suddenly feel the urge to buy that pan with 'Thermo-signal'.. you are a AUNTIE!! hhaahahs. be ready to give up your old hunts of heeren and hit the market instead! :P
wahhahahs.
kk. entertainment over.
dinner time =] bb
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 8:23 PM!
Wednesday, March 15, 2006
am now waiting for time to pass.. wahahs. going out with eunice, wenna, huiyee later. not sure whether zhenwen's coming.. think she going out with rueylin and this other gy whom i forgot the name.. hahs. =D
anyways. was bloghopping just now. finally found yiling's blog. eh. duno if she left her link when she tagged me long ago and i missed it or what.. hahhas. opps. anyhow, am glad that i found her link. wheeheheh.
was reading lyna's post about worldly issues, eg. terrorism and the likes. compared to her, my blogposts are like so bimbotic. so selfconsumed. like what matters the most in this world is the outfit that i would be wearing today and what im going to eat for lunch later. instead of focusing on other important issues like poverty and the likes. i dont think that many of us understands how it is to live in poverty. even if you do, i dont think that it's till the extent of some other countries.. cause here in singapore we would have the government's help- when your family does not have enough money to provide for your education, the government could lend a helping hand. but in other countries, there are children who would be uneducated because of such circumstances.
okae. everyone knows about these issues. so, what now? simply nod our heads and say 'yeah, we sympathise with them' and walk away? how many of us would make the effort to actively lend a helping hand?
arrgh.
so conflicting.
hahs.
cause i know that there are people out there who does help actively.
arrgh
my point is that there are not enough people helping actively..
one reason why i dont write about such issues is cause i would get very mixed up and confused about such stuff.. hahas. :D
anyhow.
saw that stupid guo meimei on tv yesterday. she's like so bloody freaking thin...??! and you know that they say the tv makes people look fatter? and she's already so thin on tv. jsut exactly how thin is she in real life??! goodness. and she doesnt look like the cute young girl on the cd cover.. ew. the first thing i thought of when i look at her is a girl suffering from malnutrition. =X
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 10:02 AM!
Tuesday, March 14, 2006
was watching the trailers for superband on tv just now.
funny. i thought bands would consist of the whole hu-ha of drums, guitar, bassist, lead singer, keyboardist and the what not..?
how come.. i see a couple of group/boyband/girlband singing n dancing their guts out..? eheheh. the girl band/group cant dance nor sing for nuts. hey, please take a look at yourself before critisizing other people pleas!- some of you might say. yeah, i agree with you too. but hello? this is a talent search and obviously you should be seeing TALENTS, not some half bake attempt at talent...
okae.
lotsa rambling. hahahs.
just my thoughts on this whole superband thing.
anyway.. too much of these talent seaches at one go kills off everything in the end.. it's not as though people here has got a rich voice, killer vocal chords like kelly clarkson. yeah..
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 7:50 PM!
Saturday, March 04, 2006
38.7deg cel of fever.. how bad is that..? goodness. and i still havent recover even though i had taken the largest amount of panadol to keep it down. so indecisive. one minute im ok the next im not. arrgh.. ive had enough of sleeping. bet i slept for more than one day when put together.. blah... yawns.
sleeping time. nights
& a LIFELONG oath of rebellion. 2:57 AM!